***A personal share about tantra & DISCOMFORT *** (a peek into my tantra life)
Being with what is
When I hear how touched people were during a workshop, or how they felt the energy flowing, or that they felt liberated, or connected… I feel a deep joy in my heart. Because that’s what I am doing it for.
To infect as many people as I can with the tantra flu! And I am also happy when I hear people encountered resistance. Difficulties. DISLIKE. Because tantra is not going to the sauna…It is not all nice, all good, all relaxation, all fun.
Actually, the moments when we are confronted with discomfort, these are huge possibilities of a breakthrough. Because it is easy to say ‘yes’ to life when things are nice and comfortable. But can you say yes to life when things are hard and unpleasant?
If you get into a mode of being with what is… of saying yes to what is…even if it is discomfort, only then there is real surrender. Real let go. Real trust. And this is where the magic happens.
A personal example
I once went through a tantric ‘death ritual’. I had to lie down and go on a journey pretending I was dead. But I felt really uncomfortable physically. My legs were restless and I started having spasms. I tried to control the spasms, but it didn’t work.
Then I considered getting up and leaving, but I knew it would be the easy way out. Finally I decided to surrender to the discomfort. To totally give into the spasms and the unease.
To fully allow it. Fully live it. Fully feel it.
And then the magic happened. I got into a really deep state of……well, I don’t even know how to describe it. I was still aware of who I was and where I was – but at the same time on a very deep journey. My body started shaking very intensely. I couldn’t open my eyes or control the movements of my body.
Tantra says yes to everything
After some time the teacher and a few assistents helped me to ‘come back’. When I opened my eyes and my body finally became quiet again, I felt like never before. There was a huge energy flow through my whole body.
Every cell seemed to be tingling. It felt so good. Like such a relieve. And I felt very alive.
Words really lack for explaining these kinds of experiences. It was a big learning for me. And now I understand why they say: tantra says yes to everything.
Not on a practical level (of course you can say no to people and situations). But to say yes to whatever you are feeling. Whatever you are experiencing. And to say yes to the all of the different tantric practices.
The your worst experience may turn into your best experience.
But only if you say yes. If you allow. If you trust.
Surrender.
Love,
Shivani.
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